☘ 012; [phone; stages 3-4]
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riastrad_ridireYo, Mayfield.
[Lancer's tone was as light and casual as always, and he sounded as if he was in a pretty decent mood. Which contrasted particularly sharply with what he was about to say.]
Did you guys know I had a brother? He fought against the country I decided to protect, so I killed him. And y'know...when you're a knight, you have to stick to this whole 'others before yourself' thing. So even though I didn't want to fight him--pleaded with him not to do something so stupid, even--it didn't matter. I killed him the same as the hundreds of other people I've killed in the past. And I don't regret it. I wish I did, but I can't. Because if I had done anything differently, my country would've suffered for it.
I can protect an entire country, but I can't save the people that actually mean something to me. I even killed my own son; that much, at least, was an accident. Didn't know who I was fighting, and I made a stupid mistake. Now he's probably going to end up killing me here, because when he gets the rematch he deserves there's no way I'll be able to hurt him knowing who he is. Y'know, he's just as tough to beat in a fight as I am now--I couldn't be more proud of him for that if I tried.
[Lancer sounded more confused than cheerful now, and maybe even a little distressed. Why was he saying all this? Why couldn't he just shut the hell up?]
I'm a knight. Culann's Hound, the demigod hero and guardian of Ulster. Even though that's true, do you know what the last thing I did before I came to Mayfield was? I was forced to kill myself because I wouldn't hurt a girl I might've called my friend, and there was nothing I could do but kill the bastard responsible before I died.
Even when I do the right thing, I can't catch a break. Figures, doesn't it?
[He laughed, though it sounded forced and unsteady.]
...shit, I want to go home. This town is one pain in the neck after another.
[Lancer's tone was as light and casual as always, and he sounded as if he was in a pretty decent mood. Which contrasted particularly sharply with what he was about to say.]
Did you guys know I had a brother? He fought against the country I decided to protect, so I killed him. And y'know...when you're a knight, you have to stick to this whole 'others before yourself' thing. So even though I didn't want to fight him--pleaded with him not to do something so stupid, even--it didn't matter. I killed him the same as the hundreds of other people I've killed in the past. And I don't regret it. I wish I did, but I can't. Because if I had done anything differently, my country would've suffered for it.
I can protect an entire country, but I can't save the people that actually mean something to me. I even killed my own son; that much, at least, was an accident. Didn't know who I was fighting, and I made a stupid mistake. Now he's probably going to end up killing me here, because when he gets the rematch he deserves there's no way I'll be able to hurt him knowing who he is. Y'know, he's just as tough to beat in a fight as I am now--I couldn't be more proud of him for that if I tried.
[Lancer sounded more confused than cheerful now, and maybe even a little distressed. Why was he saying all this? Why couldn't he just shut the hell up?]
I'm a knight. Culann's Hound, the demigod hero and guardian of Ulster. Even though that's true, do you know what the last thing I did before I came to Mayfield was? I was forced to kill myself because I wouldn't hurt a girl I might've called my friend, and there was nothing I could do but kill the bastard responsible before I died.
Even when I do the right thing, I can't catch a break. Figures, doesn't it?
[He laughed, though it sounded forced and unsteady.]
...shit, I want to go home. This town is one pain in the neck after another.
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Date: 2011-07-13 01:01 pm (UTC)[Audio]
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Date: 2011-07-13 01:31 pm (UTC)[ A sigh follows that rant. ]
Even if you're stupid like this, I tolerate it. I would say I don't know why I do it, but I do know.
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Date: 2011-07-13 05:39 pm (UTC)I...don't know what just happened. It's not like I wanted the whole damn town to know all that!
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Date: 2011-07-13 05:49 pm (UTC)[ Another sigh. ]
Sometimes I wonder why I put up with you. Then I remember you're really kind of nice and you tolerate me, so I should cling to you as tight as I can. Not like Saber would ever like me and the rest of the Servants here are kind of boring in comparison to you.
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Date: 2011-07-13 06:05 pm (UTC)Holy shit where did I get sucked off to this time?!
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Date: 2011-07-13 06:08 pm (UTC)The one and only, kid. [Well, maybe not only, considering Elizabeth was running around with some weird version of himself as a Persona or some insane thing like that.]
Just call me Lancer. It's not my name, but it sort of is. It might as well be now, at any rate. [Shutupshutupshutupshutup-]
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Date: 2011-07-13 06:11 pm (UTC)This is honestly kind of mindblowing at this rate. And I'm sorry about panicking the other day and screaming over the phone. I'd literally just started to recover from someone trying to kill me, so I was really on-edge to begin with and then waking up to find my body had been messed with threw me off a mental cliff. I'll try not to be so much of a bother next time.
[Wait, why is she still talking no one wants to hear all this!]
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Date: 2011-07-13 07:17 pm (UTC)I suppose it would be safe to assume Rin and myself were at odds at some point in your Grail war then, Lancer? If pressed I suppose I can guess why: a secondary or backup grail, yes? Furthermore I feel as though I should commend you -- even for a heroic spirit, surviving a strike from the Gae Bolg is an impressive feat.
[There's a pause, and the man on the other end frowns.]
...It appears verbal diarrhea is becoming a very common malady, does it not? How intriguing.
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Date: 2011-07-13 07:19 pm (UTC)And hey, it's my goddamned lance, so it'd be pretty pathetic if I died right away from getting hit with it. ...You know, kind of like you did. Should've seen the look on your face, it was pretty hilarious.
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...Oh hey, I actually meant to say all of that. What do you know.
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Date: 2011-07-13 07:31 pm (UTC)Well, I am merely a mortal, after all. Or would you rather see the demonic lance lauded as a weapon that assures a kill disgraced?
[You know. Like when it failed against Saber. And Archer. Were there others? I can't remember it just fails so much! That is what the tone of voice implies. Maybe.]
My surprise would be palpable if it existed. As it stands however, my surprise is deader than my self in your war, and your self in my own series of events.
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Date: 2011-07-13 11:21 pm (UTC)I am a bit jealous of how close Rin is to y....
DAMN DAMN DAMN. Curse this town.
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Date: 2011-07-13 11:28 pm (UTC)Nothin' to be jealous of, Garviel. I'm just doing my job as her Servant, that's all.
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Date: 2011-07-14 12:19 am (UTC)(no subject)
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Date: 2011-07-14 12:27 am (UTC)Welp, what's the best way to reply to this...
"Wow, you're a demigod?"
"You did what to your brother and son?"
"Well, at least you killed the bastard."
Nope, none of those. Instead, this is her eloquent reply:] ... O-oh, wow... [Yeah, she's not good at this.]
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Date: 2011-07-14 12:32 am (UTC)Sorry. I have no idea why I said any of that.
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Date: 2011-07-14 12:46 am (UTC)... And you're seriously a demigod? That's... pretty amazing.
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Date: 2011-07-14 12:30 am (UTC)That's a lot of things to go through...
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Date: 2011-07-14 12:33 am (UTC)I dealt with it. Could have done without half the town finding out, though.
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Date: 2011-07-14 12:36 am (UTC)Hearing it from you instead of someone else telling the story, though...it's different.
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Date: 2011-07-14 12:33 am (UTC)The last bit though, that's new.]
But it made a difference in the end.
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Date: 2011-07-14 11:32 am (UTC)[ look at how she consoles people! she's obviously therapist material! ]
late late late... orz
Date: 2011-07-15 04:56 am (UTC)Then again when was ever a good day for you... ._.It won't stop her from sounding like she always had, no.]